::Voice Of Reason:: ::Voice Of Truth::

*FaLLing Away from Me*

*(>>::...Story of The Year...::<<)*

I'm a 14 year old female
soon to be 15
who lives in a small sheltered town
where power games are played in school
and your last name gets you into the board
and your popularity status raises
this is in upstate NY...

I vary In my style and in what I do
I Like to write and draw alot
I've been heartbroken
but I tend to jump back Quickly

I've been teased as a Kid because I was a minority
When I lived in NYC in Queens
They would call be Big ears
and that my freckles were a disease
The only reason this affects me now
Is because I cant stand for anyone being teased that hasnt
done anything to anyone
If there a bad person I dont care then they deserve it
If there good I wont stand to see it

As young as I may be I have a tendency of
sounding like I'm 42 Mentally
I often am asked for advice
and I like to give it

If I can help in anyway Im Happy
I know I may not always be Right
but God do I try

Right Now im not the best in school
My grades aren't the best
But the whole High School thing is
Pounding at me

I Hate Earth Science...

I Have a sense of Humor
and I like to make people laugh
me and my friends when we get together
are Hysterical.

I hate Tsunamis
they scare me So much
Im sick of hearing about them now
I really am,

I can get along with people
when they have morals
empathy, love, and just plain
qualities I adore

I cannot get along with Assholes

I have never once been phony in my life
I like to tell it as it is
I like people who do the same also

I love Music,
Music is very dear to me
same as Art
and Poetry

I can go On and On but
If you have any questions you
can contact me.

LIKES::

*(>>::...Matt...::<<)*
*(>>::...My Friends...::<<)*
*(>>::...Music...::<<)*
*(>>::...Colors...::<<)*
*(>>::...Food...::<<)*
*(>>::...Computers...::<<)*
*(>>::...My Guitar...::<<)*
*(>>::...My Skateboard...::<<)*
*(>>::...Staying Out all Night long...::<<)*
*(>>::...Feeling Loved...::<<)*
*(>>::...Shirley Temples...::<<)*
*(>>::...Cherries...::<<)*
*(>>::...The Universe...::<<)*
*(>>::...Stars...::<<)*
*(>>::...Dreams & Nightmares...::<<)*
*(>>::...I Have a Fascination with Demons & Monsters...::<<)*
*(>>::...Holidays...::<<)*
*(>>::...The Summer Time...::<<)*
*(>>::...Feeling Hot...::<<)*
*(>>::...Singing...::<<)*
*(>>::...Being Alone...::<<)*
*(>>::...Senses...::<<)*
*(>>::...Art...::<<)*
*(>>::...Horror Movies...::<<)*
*(>>::...Sailor Moon...::<<)*
*(>>::...Swimming...::<<)*
*(>>::...Poetry...::<<)*
*(>>::...Juggalos...::<<)*
*(>>::...Foamy...::<<)*
*(>>::...The Exorcist...::<<)*
*(>>::...My Style Of Anime...::<<)*

DISLIKES::

*(>>::...Tsunamis...::<<)*
*(>>::...Hilary Duff...::<<)*
*(>>::...Liberal Thumpers!(let our political opinions keep to our selves!!)...::<<)*
*(>>::...When Girls Use there Sexuality to get Male attention...::<<)*
*(>>::...Gossip...::<<)*
*(>>::...being ditched...::<<)*
*(>>::...plans when they dont work out(annoys me)...::<<)*
*(>>::...hypocrites...::<<)*
*(>>::...people who put down cheerleading and say its not a sport...::<<)*
*(>>::...Lies...::<<)*
*(>>::..People who have NO empathy...::<<)*
*(>>::...Horses...::<<)*
*(>>::...Being picked on...::<<)*

FAVORITE MUSIC::

*(>>::...Avenged Sevenfold...::<<)*
*(>>::...AFI...::<<)*
*(>>::...Nirvana...::<<)*
*(>>::...Evanescence...::<<)*
*(>>::...No Doubt...::<<)*
*(>>::...A Perfect Circle...::<<)*
*(>>::...Rammstein...::<<)*
*(>>::...Limp Bizkit...::<<)*
*(>>::...Lost Prophets...::<<)*
*(>>::...MSI...::<<)*
*(>>::...Atreyu...::<<)*
*(>>::...Trapt...::<<)*
*(>>::...KoRn...::<<)*
*(>>::...Otep...::<<)*
*(>>::...Cold...::<<)*
*(>>::...Rob Zombie...::<<)*
*(>>::...Marilyn Manson...::<<)*
*(>>::...Ozzy...::<<)*
*(>>::...Black Sabbath...::<<)*
*(>>::...Stone Temple Pilots...::<<)*
*(>>::...Guns' Roses...::<<)*
*(>>::...Tool...::<<)*
*(>>::...Pantera...::<<)*
*(>>::...Papa Roach...::<<)*
*(>>::...Metallica...::<<)*
*(>>::...Kittie...::<<)*
*(>>::...Lacuna Coil...::<<)*
*(>>::...Incubus...::<<)*
*(>>::...offspring...::<<)*
*(>>::...Alice in Chains...::<<)*
*(>>::...My chemical Romance...::<<)*
*(>>::...Audioslave...::<<)*
*(>>::...Nickleback...::<<)*
*(>>::...David Bowie...::<<)*
*(>>::...Brand new...::<<)*
*(>>::...Bush...::<<)*
*(>>::...Cannibal Corpse...::<<)*
*(>>::...Chevelle...::<<)*
*(>>::...Pearl Jam...::<<)*
*(>>::...Slipknot...::<<)*
*(>>::...Coheed and Cambria...::<<)*
*(>>::...Collective Soul...::<<)*
*(>>::...Rolling stones...::<<)*
*(>>::...seether...::<<)*
*(>>::...Cradle of Filth...::<<)*
*(>>::...Deftones...::<<)*
*(>>::...Disturbed...::<<)*
*(>>::...Led Zepplin...::<<)*
*(>>::...Linkin Park...::<<)*
*(>>::...Ryan Cabrera...::<<)*
*(>>::...ICP...::<<)*
*(>>::...Hoobastank...::<<)*
*(>>::...Green Day...::<<)*
*(>>::...foo Fighters...::<<)*
*(>>::...Mudvayne...::<<)*
*(>>::...NIN...::<<)*
*(>>::...Staind...::<<)*
*(>>::...Shinedown...::<<)*
*(>>::...velvet revolver...::<<)*
*(>>::...3days grace...::<<)*
*(>>::...Queens of the stone age...::<<)*
*(>>::...rage against the machine...::<<)*
*(>>::...Godsmack...::<<)*
*(>>::...Orgy...::<<)*

::to be continued...

 

::Poems::

~Matts Poem~

It never hoped and Never dreamed...
She gathered all,
Was it meant to be?
The sureness she consumed,
Like eyesight in a wide spaced room,
The caress, the touch, the lips and the rest,
All thoughts remain,
inside her head,
And she did hope mutuality true,
For her heart was set on grey and blue,
Grey the color for which she calmed,
Bue the meaning of her trust and her bond,
He has her all, won over, won too,
Won her thoughts, emotions pursue,
Flowing river blue, bathe, born,
A new serenity with him so strong,
Her love is fragile,
A rose petal stealth,
Love so strong, steel wipped belt,
Gaze into the eyes of the one you love,
she clears her mind,
she does unwind,
she enters in
a soft kiss,
Did he ever think Love was blind?
She asks him this,
But Its never too kind...

~My Nightmare World~

as i sit at a beat up desk
i look at faces of all the rest
and when my eyes glance on u
the pain just builds up thick like glue

i hate the feeling of never knowing
of never knowing that u cared
im sick of sighing lieing defying
all the things i could have shared

and ur the cause to all this pain
all this anger deep in vain
and when i sleep deep at night
ur face is all thats shunned me tight

this nightmare that i live in
each passing lil day
is all i ever think about
in each in every lil way

u left me bitter bare and cold
always denying ur lil scold
ill never be the same
thanks to u i live in shame

ive moved on to other guys
who've loved me through and through
but still i wonder day by day
why u tore up me and u

and im sick of all this nonsense
going through my lil head
im sick of why i wanna
wind up buried dead

have u felt the feeling
of not knowing right and wrong
what makes things just?
when u feel like u cant belong

and u did this all to me
i have no reason fair
that when i look upon u
standing over there

and i can live without u in my life
i can go
i can live
i can be a wife

but sometimes life hurts worse
not knowing what went wrong
having every feeling left
tattered and torn

and when i even look upon my lovers face
i think about the hurt
that put me in this place

what he has to deal with
along with love so true
is standing there beside me
as i cry my eyes out for u

and im sick of dealing
sick of pain
sick of hurt
the sick i gain

and now u got me buried
now u got me dead
i cant get out no more
my eyes are turning red

i probably never will come back
to being all the same
but thats what happens when
evil plays the game

and i cant tell u alll about
the memories that kill me
from laughs about teachers
and kisses that instilled me

but it never will come back
and thats just the hard truth
that i unserdtand
that conclusion i came to

im happy with the love i got
but ur still killing me
i cannot get u out of my head
i probaly never will be

im scared and hopeless
lost without no faith
im dying and im lonly
lost without a trace

~Where are you now~

All the signs I cannot see...all which he thought I never could be...
I lied and stared and thought it up...and drank from this poinonus cup.
I laughed and cried and fell for you...I lied and deemed and cried for you
But in the process of my screaming...
Life's so evermore deceiving
Its left me behind and felt so alone screaming dying wining,
So worn... and I felt for you...
So long the touch...
The angels whisper your lips your clutch.
But in the midst of my dreaming lies and sorrow are whats leering...
In the direction I have spun
Your eyes so hidden from the sun....
And till this day I dream of you.
Wishing I had never knew.
But in the depths of my soul...
Love AND sorrow are so bold.
But neither 1 can hold me back...
I'm stuck in the middle a brick with a crack...
A problem I cannot resolve...feeling like I don't want to solve...
And I die within my self tonight,
I die with no sleep no will to fight...
I feel like life has given up...
And I'm only left to drink this cup...
No will...
No hope...
No price to pay,
And for what my love...
I shant not stay
For what my love,
Not here anyway,
And years and years have passed before me
And entrapt me in-between.
No thought of those eyes or lips,
Not even in my a dream,
And years and years have made me grow,
Stronger then ever before,
Life and love are not an enemy...
But now right at my door...

~No name~

it happened that same night
the night this all took place
the drama 1s book filled
has left without a trace

So please defy the karma
set upon u too
i sleep with uncertainty
uncertainty of my feelings about you

it haunts me so damn much
it kills me everyday
your face has a story
that stamped me to say

and u conjure the dreams u hesitate
to speak 1 whisperd kiss
the damned and desired hug
was only 1s insist

i insisted to hold u down
the whore that I am
speak the words of unsong meaning
you can never have

and u damn urself to pity
and self relucctance true
beastly song of certain has made
U grey and blue

your as empty as my thoughts
your as fake as your own too
your as ugly as i see you
in the light i perceive through

and i live with an enigma
deep within this brass
its stained and burnt and scratched up too
its beaten and its smashed

it posseses me when i dont want it
and feeds me greif and sorrow
it ever lets me live it down
not even by being moral

and i feel it take over me
every single day
with anger and frustration
with happiness far off at bay

and loved 1s they do know
somethings wrong with me
i cant let them in
to help and finally see

its pride that made me wonder
its pride i give to thee
u had to much of that
now are u who u want to be?

but pride consumes me more and more
by making this problem worse
i get no help from others
its insanity, its a curse

its a battle i fight myself
conflict, human against self
ill never let u in
youl never let me down from the lil shelf

you wretched egotistical slime
the love that grows for u like wicked vine
is choking me and red drops make me blind
just remain unkind

how did u change so quickly
it scares me how it happened
can this happen to other people
and make them so sadned?

was it a bird telling u what to do
or something totally changed
i wanna know what it is
or ill always live deranged

~Evil & Manipulation~

How does it feel to know your winning
In this game of intimidation
do u want to know my darkest night?
with no hopes for recreation?

and you can take all that i have and feel
and shove it in a closet full of darts
you can cancel out my love
like a doves bleeding heart

so tell me this is not real
that this isnt going on
that shes not winning this
that im conducting wrongs

and i stand my own opinion
and ill say it loud and clear
that this induced domineerings
like green eyed envies leer

so accept it or reject it
is what im expected to do
and for whats my standing purpose
what sense my point of view

so you take it or you leave it
this is how i feel inside
im not going by ur terms
thats like comitting suicide

i shouldnt have to go through with this
nonsense pain and sorrow
and for what might i add
no point of view to borrow

so lets leave it all at this
this is 1 big jumbled game
that we got caught up in
playing whose to blame

and i dont want part of this
its nothing new for me
this girl means something to you
so might as well be

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